Today, I saw my baby brother as a man for the first time.
My brother is 19 years old, just a little over 2 years younger than I am. Ive always been protective over him, perhaps even a little overbearing but I felt like as a big sister, it was my job....my unspoken/unwritten responsibility. Aside from my mother & daughter, my baby brother means the absolute world to me, all 3 of them keep me together...keep me sane. I couldnt imagine life without with 1 of the 3 missing. My brother is my best friend & I love him more than life. He has alaways been wise beyond his years, very intelligent & rational. Even though he is my younger brother brother, I look up to him.
My brother has suffered from undiagnosed depression his whole life but it wasnt until the past few years that it has gotten increasingly worse. My brother was recently checked into Methodist Psych. Ward. He was diagnosed with bipolar depression which is apparently as severe as it can get., which is believable due to his behavior & actions. My brother has attempted but obviosuly never succeeded suicide. This...for me....was absolutely devastating...heart breaking! He's been "detained" there for about 3 days now, I went to visit him today. He seemed fine...& not just a pretend fine...he actually seemed fine. He was suprisingly glad to be finally getting help. He was put on prozac & will be monitored until Tuesday, I cant wait until he is home, I miss him terribly. Talking to him today, looking at his eyes...his face...everything. He looked so grown up...like a man & thats when I realized thats exactly what he is....a man. My baby brother is a man & he is taking charge of his life by getting help...like a man. Even though Ive come to this realization, I will still be the same over protective/overbearing big sister because thats my job! I love you bub!
Samatha I am wishing him the best and hope they are able to get a handle on his depression. Our prays are ooming your way for him to began the painful process of getting back to himself.
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ReplyDeleteI hope that everything will be back to normal soon for you all. I feel the same way about my brother and he was had lots of behavioral problems since he was 5. I was the only one that could deal with him that's what makes us so close. I am very overprotective and sometimes I think more than my mom. He was locked up in a mental hospital and group homes for half of his life. It was a very hard thing for all of us. I think this made him a better man and it was really hard for me to finally accept that he has grown up right before my eyes. I think it would help him to know that you support him and love him no matter what. Just let him know you will always be there for him.
Thanks you guys, I sincerely appreciate it!
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